I Should Just Stick To Till

Sooo...been staring at this screen for nearly an hour trying to find the words to put here, and I can't find them. I am truly at a loss for describing what's going through my head. All I can say it's quite the clusterfuck. I thought I'd finally found my slice of happiness, and that fish was caught before I could even cast my line. Not sure how to deal with it.


So basically it's like this:

Getting blitzed has it's appeal, but so does having a nice hot shower and letting it all go. I'm torn.